Embracing Changes

I did something really scary but also liberating this week. I made a big change in my current life. Finally I had enough and felt it was time to turn the page. Someday I am going to tell you all about it but right now I can’t. It’s still too fresh – a bit like a open wound. I need to take care of the bleeding first.

It strange cause once you make the decision is like everything falls into it’s right place. Naturally I have been thinking about it for a while, making pro and con lists in my head. Trying to follow my head (or the scared voice in my head) more than my stomach.
Then one night I dreamed about eating poo, it didn’t smell like it or taste bad – it was like my whole mouth was full of chocolate but I woke up with the feeling that it was poo.
Scary and yes so weird. But also probably a sign. I had enough.

So I ended something and started fresh.
I bought this little Joseph head as a – wow- I – am – oh – so – brave – present to my self.
I have been looking at him since way before Christmas.
Now was the time.

Isabelle

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13 Responses to Embracing Changes

  1. felicia January 20, 2012 at 13:36 #

    väldigt fint formulerat. det känns hoppfullt och modigt. jag hoppas att förändringen ger dig det du vill ha.
    Isabelle: tack Felicia blev glad av det du skrev.

  2. Jenny at dos family January 20, 2012 at 14:04 #

    Isabelle: you are brave! And also awesome!! The poo-dream made me think of devine. And she always make me feel better, so here is a clip from pink flamingo ( no, not the dog-poo-eating-scen). http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bHKJt8beCI&feature=youtube_gdata_player

    Jenny: Haha big love

  3. Herma January 20, 2012 at 14:27 #

    Good for you!
    It’s not easy, taking these giant decisions in life. Follow your heart.

    Isabelle: Hear hear!

  4. Sarah January 20, 2012 at 14:31 #

    Heja dig! Det brukar bli så himla bra när man följer sitt hjärta.

    Isabelle: Ja det brukar bli bra men kan vara så svårt att veta vad hjärtat egetnligen vill

  5. Jessy January 20, 2012 at 16:17 #

    I had a dream just like that a few years ago, and it helped me to make a decision to turn a page (or a few pages) and move back to europe…among other things. I’m glad I’m not the only one who has had such a strange dream, and I’m glad that you are doing what you need to do to be happy!

    Isabelle: Jessy I am also so happy I am not the only one with a dream like that. But as it turns out. It always feels like you are the only one but you never are!

  6. Saga January 20, 2012 at 18:12 #

    Heja heja dig!
    Isabelle: Tack Saga

  7. Swedish House January 20, 2012 at 22:44 #

    Hello Isabelle
    I am at a crossroads in my life…
    But gathering strength
    It takes real courage to turn the page and start afresh…
    Wishing you the best of everything on your new journey in life
    LOVE PEACE enJOY life
    Julie
    x

    P.S. Thanks for sharing

    Isabelle: Thank you Julie – and I do hope you will go the way you are supposed to. Well you always do. Lots of strenght back at ya!

  8. Jessica O January 21, 2012 at 00:22 #

    Hola….Hi…..Hej!
    A few years ago a friend once told me that if you have a hard time “breathing” you need to make a change… I did! It was the hardest thing and the best thing that I could of done. Wherever you get your strength from keep it close to you so you have it when you need it. Chin up Isabelle….

    I listed to a lot of 80′s music here are two of my favorites from Love and Rockets and The Smiths

    Isabelle: Oh so many times I have wished for a music score to my life. Thanks!

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_U5HpeA_WSo&feature=related

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aMnaa__JZbU&feature=related

  9. Lena K. January 21, 2012 at 01:54 #

    I wish you the best of luck with your situation and sincerely hope your dreams are all poop-free from now on. ;-)

  10. Lena K. January 21, 2012 at 01:56 #

    [Oh, and since others are sharing music, too, here’s a current favorite that I found very soothing during a hard time recently. If you happen to like Elvis impersonators (totally unrelated to the tune or text but in the video), you’ll probably like it even more. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zBpkRaF8iSY ]

  11. mia January 21, 2012 at 16:52 #

    Heja! Heja! Heja!
    Isabelle: Ja heja!

  12. Anja January 22, 2012 at 16:42 #

    Can we fix it? – Yes, we can! ;-)
    The best in time in life is realising that you don’t have to accept circumstances, that hurt you!
    I’ve been through that and after thinking/talking to many different people/crying/ further education and feeling really bad, I took my things and changed: appartement, job, town and even some friends.
    Sure, all my problems (like less self-confidance) moved with me, but I had to open my heart, to get to know new friends and colleagues, deal with loneliness, invite new chances into my life… AND IT’S THE BEST THING I EVER DID!
    You can’t spend your whole live “indoors”: go outside and see with open eyes, what live is really like. Look after yourself, listen to your feelings and be surprised: there are a lot of things, that you wouldn’t expect!
    So, be proud of yourself: now something new will beginn!!!!!! Enjoy!

    Isabelle: Anja thanks for charing and its always best knowing you are not alone! Hope everything will go even better!

  13. Anja January 24, 2012 at 20:45 #

    ;-) I like my new life with a lot of new experiences, new friends and very good old friends, who are still with me, even if there are lots of kilometers between us… Life is so much richer now (and I’m so proud that I did all that steps).
    I hope that your decisions will have the same effect (and its good to read, that there’s still love in the air, someone special who takes care of you, supports you while you are searching for a new way!)

    Keep on moving!!!!

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